#Spotlight: Crystal Marie — Blogger #mm #mf #guestpost @CMreviewers


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To be honest, I wasn’t going to write a blog post for this month.  But since I had an open slot, I figured that I should give it a shot and see what would come up.

And then it hit me, I have no freaking idea what to write a blog post about!  I’m not an author, I’m a blogger.  Since when do people care about what a blogger has to say?

And coming up with a topic idea on what to write about?  Holy crap, I feel sorry for every author that I have ever said “OH you can pick the topic we aren’t picky!”  Because now with me trying to do this post, and having no clue what to write about, I realize the pain and suffering that I am putting you through.  I’m so sorry!

Then, something hilarious happened.  I was setting up a guest post for AF Henley for this month, and I started to read it and it turns out he had the same problem that I had! Coming up with a guest post topic.  And it made me feel not alone anymore.  So thank you AF for that!  Oh, and you should really check out his post HERE.

But I’m sure you might be wondering why I am writing this guest post, and why my blog that is currently booked up till like 13 December has an opening when I keep telling people we are booked up, here’s why.

I’m tired.

I’m annoyed.

I’m angry.

Disgruntled.

Upset.

Disappointed.

Any of the above and any other word you can think of along those lines, I’m that right now.

I’m tired – because 24/7 for the past 3.5 years I’ve busted my butt on this blog.

I’m annoyed – because as time goes on, people are treating bloggers more and more like the scum on the bottom of their shoes.

I’m angry – because I want to email those authors back who write me emails cursing me and my reviewers out over a 4 star review.  But I can’t.

Disgruntled – simply because the whole phrase “Disgruntled Blogger” sounds awesome.

Upset – Because as time goes on, the book world seems to be going further and further down the rabbit hole and there’s no light anymore.

Disappointed – because a community that I once LOVED, once fought to be a part of has changed so much, and not for the better, has made it so that I don’t want to be in this world anymore.

 

So I did the best thing that I could do right now, and I “shut” down the blog for a month.  I’m going to spend a month away from the book world.  I’m going to get back to reading for enjoyment.  I’m going to read a book and just love it for the fact that it’s a book and not try to pick it apart for errors.  And even more than that? I’m going to be okay with the fact that I read a book that was 2 stars and not have to worry about a lawsuit being brought against me because I didn’t like that book.

Why is there still posts going up each day?  Well I’ve worked it out with those authors that the posts will be there, and they can promote them all they want.  But the plain and simple reason is, my mama had a good point.  If we didn’t have anything at all, then the blog really would disappear.

Am I saying that I want the blog to disappear? Nope.  I’m just saying that right now – well not even right now, this has been brewing for the past year or so and the break has been scheduled since May – that I need to walk away for a bit.

When I first started blogging, oh it was so much fun.  It was great to be able to talk with the authors, get the free books (totally not going to lie there either), and just have a blast with the blogging community as a whole.  But at some point, it started to change, where blogs were turning against other blogs.  Authors against bloggers.  Authors against authors.  Instead of being there to prop people up, it feels like all that’s going on in the communities is a bunch of backstabbing.

Authors getting their feelings hurt over a 4-star review.  Yes, you read that right.  4 stars and the authors are emailing me threatening legal action if I don’t remove the review.  Authors commenting on 3 star reviews saying that “we don’t read their genre” when they specifically filled out our review request form knowing what genres we review.

I recently sent out a tour invite for an author friend of mine, and I was amazed at how many bounced back emails we got from blogs that have shut down.  And I understand.  It’s a lot of work with very little reward.  But I still remember when that “very little reward” was more than enough to keep us going.  Now though?  Maybe I’m greedy.  Maybe I’m spoiled.  Maybe, just maybe, I’m tired of my blog being treated like crap.

We have been a cross-genre review blog since I first started. (In case you’re wondering that means we review LGBTQ titles as well as Heterosexual titles.)  And it’s gotten to the point where apparently you can’t review both anymore.  The LGBT community won’t give the blog any time because we review that “dirty het crap.” And the Het community doesn’t want anything to do with a blog that reviews “that horrible gay crap”.  For 2 communities that are so forthcoming about acceptance, there isn’t any there. You can’t do both.

Now, I’m sure some of you are thinking “Oh what are you complaining about? You said earlier your booked up until 13 December! Grow up!” and your right, we are booked up that far because we do have some amazing authors and publishers that we work with.  And they really are amazing.  I love each and every one of them.

But it’s like that old saying “It only takes 1 bad apple to ruin the bunch”, and those bad apples are coming out more and more every single day.

Overall, the blog is on a break, but we will be coming back for reviews on a normal, but shortened, operating schedule.

“What’s normal, but shortened mean?”

Oh thanks for asking!  We are now limiting ourselves to 4 posts per day, Monday – Friday only.  That way we can all have a break.

I’m hoping that it all works out and things go smoothly for us from here on out, but only time will tell.

And, by the way, this is what happens when Crystal has to write a guest post and doesn’t know what to write about!